New Poetry Account!

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BASICALLY it is 3 am and I just created a poetry account. I will no longer be putting up any poetry on this account. In fact, I'll be deleting most of it (because all the good stuff was transferred to the new one). If you want to see any more of my poetry, follow my new account BeItLacking. This account will probably only have illustrations from now own.
Warning: poetry account will be filled with depressing stuff and self harm mentions! It will be stupidly personal! But it is full of my poetry, and poetry is best when it is read!

That is all.


Yoooo, so some of you may have wondered why I don't post quite as much poetry as I used to, especially my really depressing stuff (if any of you did notice, which I do not blame you if no one did). That was because I stopped posting it to this account. It was going somewhere else.

So basically, I have a bunch of extra accounts on dA scattered throughout this great big land, and I have one in particular where I put all my depressing stuff, because at one point my poetry was getting extremely raw and extremely personal and I didn't want friends to worry about me. I was also hiding it, because i was super ashamed of myself and my feelings and my poor mental health and blah blah blah blah blah.

Long story short, I've been trying to learn to accept parts of me that I was scared to acknowledge before. I tried to pretend that those facets of my identity weren't a part of me, that they belonged to someone else. I was disjointed and terribly distraught. But I want to be whole again. I want to own every part of me, including my dark depressing emo poetry crap. Since I came to college, I've been less afraid of the stigma and judging that comes with owning up to mental illness, less terrified of the person I am when I'm weak, less scared of baring myself. And I want that to start reflecting here as well. So, I'm gonna try to stop using some of my extra accounts. And maybe, I'll start to transfer some of that old poetry from years of hiding, and place it back here, and finally own it.

(ahahha, only the good stuff though. The weaker pieces can just stay hidden forever~)

So, welcome back, depression poetry! But also, welcome back the rest of my lost identity! I missed being honest and not caring about judgement. I'm not sure if you all particularly missed it, but you know what, I'm tired of pretending to be better than I am. So let the mass submitting of bad emo poetry begin!

I'll slowly start transferring the hidden poetry to this account, and start putting my new stuff here. Thanks for supporting me during the ride.

:new: ACTUALLY, rethinking this (it is midnight, I am allowed to be spacey), I may instead just stop posting poetry here, and convert one of my secret accounts into a poetry account, and advertise that? That way people that like my poetry can just watch that one, people that just like my illustrations can watch this one, and then someone of you who care can watch both? I noticed it was always kind of eclectic (Really HAPPY art and then super depressing poetry), so maybe it was better if I'd separate them.
If I did this though, I'd tell everyone where to find the poetry and have links to it!

Any insight? This is probably what I'm going to do, but tell me your opinions! After all, i am thinking at midnight, which is not an amazing time to think.
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