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BASICALLY it is 3 am and I just created a poetry account. I will no longer be putting up any poetry on this account. In fact, I'll be deleting most of it (because all the good stuff was transferred to the new one). If you want to see any more of my poetry, follow my new account BeItLacking. This account will probably only have illustrations from now own.
Warning: poetry account will be filled with depressing stuff and self harm mentions! It will be stupidly personal! But it is full of my poetry, and poetry is best when it is read!
That is all.
Yoooo, so some of you may have wondered why I don't post quite as much poetry as I used to, especially my really depressing stuff (if any of you did notice, which I do not blame you if no one did). That was because I stopped posting it to this account. It was going somewhere else.
So basically, I have a bunch of extra accounts on dA scattered throughout this great big land, and I have one in particular where I put all my depressing stuff, because at one point my poetry was getting extremely raw and extremely personal and I didn't want friends to worry about me. I was also hiding it, because i was super ashamed of myself and my feelings and my poor mental health and blah blah blah blah blah.
Long story short, I've been trying to learn to accept parts of me that I was scared to acknowledge before. I tried to pretend that those facets of my identity weren't a part of me, that they belonged to someone else. I was disjointed and terribly distraught. But I want to be whole again. I want to own every part of me, including my dark depressing emo poetry crap. Since I came to college, I've been less afraid of the stigma and judging that comes with owning up to mental illness, less terrified of the person I am when I'm weak, less scared of baring myself. And I want that to start reflecting here as well. So, I'm gonna try to stop using some of my extra accounts. And maybe, I'll start to transfer some of that old poetry from years of hiding, and place it back here, and finally own it.
(ahahha, only the good stuff though. The weaker pieces can just stay hidden forever~)
So, welcome back, depression poetry! But also, welcome back the rest of my lost identity! I missed being honest and not caring about judgement. I'm not sure if you all particularly missed it, but you know what, I'm tired of pretending to be better than I am. So let the mass submitting of bad emo poetry begin!
I'll slowly start transferring the hidden poetry to this account, and start putting my new stuff here. Thanks for supporting me during the ride.
ACTUALLY, rethinking this (it is midnight, I am allowed to be spacey), I may instead just stop posting poetry here, and convert one of my secret accounts into a poetry account, and advertise that? That way people that like my poetry can just watch that one, people that just like my illustrations can watch this one, and then someone of you who care can watch both? I noticed it was always kind of eclectic (Really HAPPY art and then super depressing poetry), so maybe it was better if I'd separate them.
If I did this though, I'd tell everyone where to find the poetry and have links to it!
Any insight? This is probably what I'm going to do, but tell me your opinions! After all, i am thinking at midnight, which is not an amazing time to think.
Warning: poetry account will be filled with depressing stuff and self harm mentions! It will be stupidly personal! But it is full of my poetry, and poetry is best when it is read!
That is all.
So basically, I have a bunch of extra accounts on dA scattered throughout this great big land, and I have one in particular where I put all my depressing stuff, because at one point my poetry was getting extremely raw and extremely personal and I didn't want friends to worry about me. I was also hiding it, because i was super ashamed of myself and my feelings and my poor mental health and blah blah blah blah blah.
Long story short, I've been trying to learn to accept parts of me that I was scared to acknowledge before. I tried to pretend that those facets of my identity weren't a part of me, that they belonged to someone else. I was disjointed and terribly distraught. But I want to be whole again. I want to own every part of me, including my dark depressing emo poetry crap. Since I came to college, I've been less afraid of the stigma and judging that comes with owning up to mental illness, less terrified of the person I am when I'm weak, less scared of baring myself. And I want that to start reflecting here as well. So, I'm gonna try to stop using some of my extra accounts. And maybe, I'll start to transfer some of that old poetry from years of hiding, and place it back here, and finally own it.
(ahahha, only the good stuff though. The weaker pieces can just stay hidden forever~)
So, welcome back, depression poetry! But also, welcome back the rest of my lost identity! I missed being honest and not caring about judgement. I'm not sure if you all particularly missed it, but you know what, I'm tired of pretending to be better than I am. So let the mass submitting of bad emo poetry begin!
I'll slowly start transferring the hidden poetry to this account, and start putting my new stuff here. Thanks for supporting me during the ride.
ACTUALLY, rethinking this (it is midnight, I am allowed to be spacey), I may instead just stop posting poetry here, and convert one of my secret accounts into a poetry account, and advertise that? That way people that like my poetry can just watch that one, people that just like my illustrations can watch this one, and then someone of you who care can watch both? I noticed it was always kind of eclectic (Really HAPPY art and then super depressing poetry), so maybe it was better if I'd separate them.
If I did this though, I'd tell everyone where to find the poetry and have links to it!
Any insight? This is probably what I'm going to do, but tell me your opinions! After all, i am thinking at midnight, which is not an amazing time to think.
Commissions Open! (lost my job)
Lost my job recently and it’s hard to find another due to school. I’m saving up for an apartment with my significant other so any help would be great! Please email me at redleaveshavefallen@gmail.com if interested or if you have questions.
Notes:When I finish the initial sketch, I will send it to you and ask for approval & payment. If you reject the sketch, I will make up to two additional sketches before you either choose one and pay or give me a new character/decide against the commission.I have the right to reject requests I am not comfortable with or I feel are above my current skill level. Feel free to ask for something
Some Updates!
:bulletyellow:Hey y'all! Sorry I've been scant, I've mainly been using my poetry/gore account BeItLacking (https://www.deviantart.com/beitlacking). This is because I've mainly been drawing poetry and gore. So, that's my life.
:bulletred:I also started my Bokurano fancomic, Theirs! I'm not sure if I'm gonna post the pages here??? (I probably will, dA is good about fullviews). But they can be found on my Tumblr, which I post art the day I finish it! So faster art seeing.
:bulletblue:Speaking of places where I am actually active, if you want a daily dose of Aki, I am nearly always on my Twitter! Feel free to follow and talk to me. :D
:bulletpink:But anyways, I finally did come
Some Updates!
:bulletyellow:Hey y'all! Sorry I've been scant, I've mainly been using my poetry/gore account BeItLacking (https://www.deviantart.com/beitlacking). This is because I've mainly been drawing poetry and gore. So, that's my life.
:bulletred:I also started my Bokurano fancomic, Theirs! I'm not sure if I'm gonna post the pages here??? (I probably will, dA is good about fullviews). But they can be found on my Tumblr, which I post art the day I finish it! So faster art seeing.
:bulletblue:Speaking of places where I am actually active, if you want a daily dose of Aki, I am nearly always on my Twitter! Feel free to follow and talk to me. :D
:bulletpink:But anyways, I finally did come
Happy New Year! (Life Update and Future Plans)
Hey everyone, another year has passed! I'm so proud of each and every one of you for making it to today, and I'm filled with gratitude that after all your unique struggles and experiences that you're still here, and choosing to spend some of your time to spend reading my silly words! Each moment you have is precious--each moment you continue to be here is precious. I love you and hope this coming year brings you new opportunities, deeper depth of life fulfillment, and a greater sense of joy and growth in your life!
Now then, some life updates!
This year has been pretty big for me! I can't go into all of it, but a loooooot of stuff has been
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